it has been nearly a week, but one morning last week i rolled out of bed and while i struggled to keep my electrical toothbrush in my mouth, all i could think about was being with mom. i miss her, like, everyday, but rarely do i wake up dreaming about being in the same room as her...it was a little bizarre, but i didn't think much of it.
so i fumble into the kitchen and start a new pot of coffee while attempting to maintain conversation with a chatty guest. before the coffee was even ready, a new guest, a very energetic 30 year old woman, came practically running in looking for some coffee. after not much more than a "good morning" from me, she was eager to reveal that she was headed to pick up her mom! nearly bursting into tears of mixed emotions, i listened to her talk about how her dad, who had practically "lost it" without her mom, was upstairs, already dressed and waiting to go. her emotion and eagerness to take mom home (which really just means to a halfway house closer to home) was so real. it was awesome.
so i was feeling a little jealous that twenty minutes later she'd be hugging her mom, but also feeling pretty *blessed* that i get to try new things and travel the world with my mom, AND have more than 300 minutes a month to call and talk about nothing really important (i average 20 minutes a day, usually saying "soo, that's all really....what are you doing tomorrow?.. and the next day?"
anyway, the universe really got itself together that morning and things just made sense.
on another note, if you haven't all donated all of your money to the alderson hospitality house, you should consider giving some money to the link below. i don't really know the guy that well, but he went to depaul and runs marathons. he is running chicago for an organization called "back on my feet." you can read about it on his donation page, but it's a non profit that helps people that are homeless through running and resources. paige volunteered (ran) with them some this spring and really liked it...i wanted to, but group runs are at like 5 am and i wasn't about to get up that early.
of course, if you would rather send your donations here, you can help pay for my growing donut obsession. !
miss and love. xoxox
here is the link to donate $$ (type it into a new page, or email me and i will send it to you so that you can copy and paste):
http://www.active.com/donate/BoMF2014CHIMarathon/CHIMarathon2014CDeKn
wow ju. youre not getting up at 5 to run thru the mountains? your momma and you will be travelin the world again fore you know it! enjoy your time and peace in the moment that you find yourself. i know its much different than anywhere youve been but also know that the people and landscape there are very, very special! you can always return to crazy fast pace.
ReplyDeletelove ya. peace
Speechless. I feel honored to see all those photos of the two of us and be visually reminded of all the memories I filter through quite often. You do not know what our time together means to me.
ReplyDeleteRereading your words takes me back to that mission trip I went on and the theme for that week which was about "shifting 2 degrees." The perspective that you can learn from and enjoy and grow from when we take the just a 2 degree shift from our zone is a gift. Something we need to tap into when the going gets tough and we need a reality check. YOU are well equipped to take that quick journey and move the 2 degrees. God bless you.
Will check out the 'running guy'. I remember when Paige was running with them. It is amazing to me - --- all the good that is done, all the opportunities we have to assist people and how many people sacrifice of themselves to help others. Seems like your are solidly grounded in that group and I am proud of you.
Can't wait to see you as soon as possible. Love you so much.